Anxious. Anxious. Anxious.

Hello friends.

I am new to the blogging world, so don't mind my lack of amazing writing or topics. I'm sure it will be pretty boring. Anyhow, as you can tell from my information I am engaged to my high school sweetheart, Alex. We've been dating since our freshman year, age 14...we're now 22...that means, almost 8 full years together (10-06-09 will be 8 years). So it's been almost undeniable that an engagement would soon arrive. Well, 05-22-09, it did! We went on a small vacation to Ft. Lauderdale, FL and Alex proposed on the beach our last night there. It was amazing and pretty much exactly how I hoped it would be.

Sounds fabulous, right?

WRONG!

Here comes the anxious part...
Well, it seems like Al and I will not be getting married for a few (about 3) years. I hate this so much and am so anxious to start planning and to just be together, in one place. But, to be smart, we are waiting until we both graduate school (Al- May 2010, Me- December 2010) and we find "real people" jobs. Since I am graduating at an awkward time in terms of getting a full time teaching job, that puts me at potentially having my own classroom for the 2011-2012 school year. Because we would also love a summer wedding, that puts our tentative wedding date somewhere around June 23, 2012. Yikes. Also, Al plans to go to graduate school right after he graduates from NIU, so depending on where he gets accepted/goes, we may or may not be able to live together in the same city until that year of our wedding! This is all kind of a mess, but we both agree that our financial stability is the most important thing, however, we do not want to sacrifice certain aspects of our dream wedding to get married early/cheaper. So, I'm thinking I am going to have to suck it up, stop planning, and hope for the best. And play the lottery.